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"I want to know what love is, I want you to show me."
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justbeingaqueen and rockstarwarbler
What: Newdirections beginnings
Where: Dorms, Dalton Academy
When: Directly after their first kiss
Kurt's bedazzling kit had been shoved haphazardly and distractedly back into its case and was now sitting on Blaine's desk beside where both of their blazers were slung over the back of his desk chair. Their bags were lying together on the floor, and on Blaine's little single dorm bed, he and Kurt were sitting beside each other yet again wrapped up in an entwined embrace as they kissed each other hungrily. It had been Kurt's suggestion they go somewhere that wasn't the study hall, and now they had started, it was like they couldn't stop kissing. Any notion to practice their duet was gone out the window, and all they could focus on was each other.
That was when Kurt lost his balance and from how he had been sitting a little awkward and flopped back onto the bed, accidentally pulling Blaine with him. Blaine sort of fell half on top of him and their lips crashed harder together and caused them to break apart with a laugh. Kurt was breathless, his cheeks flushed and he lay there on his back, gazing up at Blaine with an awe-struck smile on his face. "I can't believe you actually... want me. I became pretty convinced you wanted anyone but me, you know. I guess, I just... um... does this make us... um..." he stammered, tripping over his words. He knew what he wanted to say but there was a niggly part of him that was frightened Blaine was going to pull away and change his mind. That maybe he just misjudged his feelings because Kurt had been crying and upset over Pavarotti. The entire last week at been intense. In the wake of making up after their fight, there had been the gas pains sexy faces, his dad giving him The Talk, having the flu and still trying to practice for Regionals, and then Pavarotti dropping dead. It had stunned Kurt and he had really been upset about it.
Now this. Now Blaine coming to him and basically confessing he had feelings for Kurt right before he kissed him, and then they couldn't stop kissing and Kurt was beyond swept off his feet. But this moment had to come where they paused for a breather to think rationally about the whole thing, no matter how scared he was about Blaine's unpredictable responses to things. Blaine had always been a tough cookie to read and more often than not, Kurt got it wrong. He really, really hoped he hadn't gotte this wrong, though. There was something thrilling and even nerve-wracking about holding Blaine in his arms and feeling his lips on his own. Hell, there had even been his tongue in Kurt's mouth. Kurt had never had another tongue in his mouth, and his heart was pouding heavily in his chest.
"Boyfriends?" Blaine asked and grin lit up his face when he gave a nod. He touched his fingertips to Kurt's pale, soft cheek and he looked over Kurt's face. It was the closest he had ever been to Kurt, and he noticed now how gorgeous his blue eyes were and how his face didn't have a single blemish on it. His skin was soft and warm, and Blaine couldn't resist the urge to lean closer and brush his lips across Kurt's again. As Warblers, they had free periods this week to prepare for the upcoming Regional competition, and whilst the rest of the group thought Kurt and Blaine were practicing their duet, this had happened and Blaine had no regrets. "I'm game if you are. Kurt, I meant everything I said. I think maybe I have been feeling it deep down for awhile, but I didn't see it. I was trying to self-sabotage so I could be what my dad wanted, but all the while I was missing what I really wanted... and what I really want is you. You're so beautiful, you make me smile, you make me feel like I can take on the world. I... I want to be with you. I can't promise I'll be perfect at it, because I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'll try my best."
Kurt caught his lip between his teeth around a smile and decided he wasn't going to get tired of that warm, fluttery feeling in his belly when Blaine said things like this to him, or looked at him like that, or kissed him. Kurt finally had his first real kiss and there was no way he could have anticipated how amazing that was going to be. Blaine tasted great, and he had soft, full lips. "We can figure that out together," he told Blaine and brushed his hand up Blaine's arm. "But what about your dad, Blaine? Are you sure you're okay with this? I... guess I would be okay with keeping it a secret if it made things easier for you. I mean, if you don't want to tell him. I really don't think I'm his favourite person the world and there is that added complication that I, well, have a penis."
"Yeah, I can feel that..." Blaine threw back with a michievous smile. The way he was lying pressed up against Kurt, it was a little hard to hide anything between them. They were both teenage boys, and their bodies had reacted exactly how teenage boy's bodies would in this situation. They both had erections, and for the first time, Blaine wasn't embarrassed about that. He was coming to the realisation now that the faceless guy he had been jerking off over in his head lately was probably actually Kurt, and he sort of wanted to laugh at his own blindness with the whole thing. He had been so damn clueless, but how had he not see it was Kurt? "I don't want to hide this. You mean the world to me and I want to date you, and I want the world to know... and the world includes my dad. I just need to find the balls to tell him without chickening out. I don't want to hurt him, Kurt. But I don't want to keep living a lie and pretending I'm something I'm not anymore. Not now."
"Courage..." Kurt murmured with a teasing smile. His first reaction had been to blush at a little when Blaine acknowledged the fact they were both hard, but it was impossible to actually be embarrassed. More just bashful that all this was so new, and that Blaine was the reason Kurt was reacting like that. Neither were anywhere near ready for sex, and Kurt knew that with how morified he had been when his dad gave him The Talk, but he had read the pamphlets closely and he knew that the whole time he was reading them, he was picturing everything in the with Blaine somewhere in the future. That was a huge thing. Now it wasn't just fantasy. It was really happening. Blaine liked him back, he wanted to date him and his belly was doing little flip-flops of excitement. "Oh my god, I can't believe I have a boyfriend!" he squealed, giving a little wiggle under Blaine as he grabbed his face and pulled him back in for another kiss.
Blaine kissed him back, but then had to laugh and it yet again broke the kiss. "Oh my god, so do I!" he joked back and then wrapped Kurt up in a cuddle, settling down beside him. They were lying facing each other, arms hugged around each other and their noses just a few inches apart. "I've never snuggled with anyone before. You're warm and cosy, and you smell amazing. I'm going to get used to this very, very fast. I've got a doctor's appointment this evening and then dinner with dad. He wants us to talk. I'm going to try and tell him then. Hopefully I don't chicken out. I don't want to hide this. I want to be like any normal person with a boyfriend, and show you off to the whole world. I'm just... nervous I'm going to screw everything up. I seem to screw everything up lately."
Kurt shuffled a little closer and started to rub little circles to Blaine's back. "Don't overthink it all, okay? Just let it be and let it play out its natural progression. If you can't tell your dad tonight, you can try again soon. There's no pressure. I'm here and I'll help you any way I can. I know what a huge thing it is going to be for you. I'd offer to come and support you, but I know it's something you need to do on your own. There is one thing I needed to say, though. I wanted to apologise to you for kicking you out that day you tried to talk to me about sex. I wasn't ready for it at that point, and I don't know when I will be ready, but it was more the fact I was embarrassed to talk to you about it because I did have feelings for you. I just didn't mean to get all embarrassed and get my knickers in a twist with you. None of that stuff comes naturally to me, so you're just going to have to bear with me through all of this. I'm totally clueless too. But I think we can try and figure it out together, yeah? Much more of this practicing thing? But until we're both ready, maybe just a, um... no hands below the waist policy? Is that okay?"
Blaine nodded in complete agreement. "I'm more than okay with plenty more practicing," he promised, rubbing his nose gently against Kurt's and seeking out his lips again. They began to kiss softly and slowly this time, the frantic and hungry nature of their initial hook up gone for the moment. Wow, this was really nice. In fact, it was way, way more nice than he imagined it watching it on TV or in movies. Feeling Kurt this close to him, knowing that in these last few minutes, Kurt just agreed to b his boyfriend, and that it was a whole new start for them, for the first time in a very long time, Blaine was feeling content and settled. It felt right, and all he needed now was to get over the hurdle of talking to his dad about this and hope he didn't come away from it all more miserable than when he started. If his dad tried to stop him seeing Kurt, it could be the start of a huge mess because Blaine wouldn't stop seeing Kurt for anyone... not even his dad.
RP LOG, SCENE COMPLETE
justbeingaqueen and rockstarwarblerWhat: New
Where: Dorms, Dalton Academy
When: Directly after their first kiss
Kurt's bedazzling kit had been shoved haphazardly and distractedly back into its case and was now sitting on Blaine's desk beside where both of their blazers were slung over the back of his desk chair. Their bags were lying together on the floor, and on Blaine's little single dorm bed, he and Kurt were sitting beside each other yet again wrapped up in an entwined embrace as they kissed each other hungrily. It had been Kurt's suggestion they go somewhere that wasn't the study hall, and now they had started, it was like they couldn't stop kissing. Any notion to practice their duet was gone out the window, and all they could focus on was each other.
That was when Kurt lost his balance and from how he had been sitting a little awkward and flopped back onto the bed, accidentally pulling Blaine with him. Blaine sort of fell half on top of him and their lips crashed harder together and caused them to break apart with a laugh. Kurt was breathless, his cheeks flushed and he lay there on his back, gazing up at Blaine with an awe-struck smile on his face. "I can't believe you actually... want me. I became pretty convinced you wanted anyone but me, you know. I guess, I just... um... does this make us... um..." he stammered, tripping over his words. He knew what he wanted to say but there was a niggly part of him that was frightened Blaine was going to pull away and change his mind. That maybe he just misjudged his feelings because Kurt had been crying and upset over Pavarotti. The entire last week at been intense. In the wake of making up after their fight, there had been the gas pains sexy faces, his dad giving him The Talk, having the flu and still trying to practice for Regionals, and then Pavarotti dropping dead. It had stunned Kurt and he had really been upset about it.
Now this. Now Blaine coming to him and basically confessing he had feelings for Kurt right before he kissed him, and then they couldn't stop kissing and Kurt was beyond swept off his feet. But this moment had to come where they paused for a breather to think rationally about the whole thing, no matter how scared he was about Blaine's unpredictable responses to things. Blaine had always been a tough cookie to read and more often than not, Kurt got it wrong. He really, really hoped he hadn't gotte this wrong, though. There was something thrilling and even nerve-wracking about holding Blaine in his arms and feeling his lips on his own. Hell, there had even been his tongue in Kurt's mouth. Kurt had never had another tongue in his mouth, and his heart was pouding heavily in his chest.
"Boyfriends?" Blaine asked and grin lit up his face when he gave a nod. He touched his fingertips to Kurt's pale, soft cheek and he looked over Kurt's face. It was the closest he had ever been to Kurt, and he noticed now how gorgeous his blue eyes were and how his face didn't have a single blemish on it. His skin was soft and warm, and Blaine couldn't resist the urge to lean closer and brush his lips across Kurt's again. As Warblers, they had free periods this week to prepare for the upcoming Regional competition, and whilst the rest of the group thought Kurt and Blaine were practicing their duet, this had happened and Blaine had no regrets. "I'm game if you are. Kurt, I meant everything I said. I think maybe I have been feeling it deep down for awhile, but I didn't see it. I was trying to self-sabotage so I could be what my dad wanted, but all the while I was missing what I really wanted... and what I really want is you. You're so beautiful, you make me smile, you make me feel like I can take on the world. I... I want to be with you. I can't promise I'll be perfect at it, because I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'll try my best."
Kurt caught his lip between his teeth around a smile and decided he wasn't going to get tired of that warm, fluttery feeling in his belly when Blaine said things like this to him, or looked at him like that, or kissed him. Kurt finally had his first real kiss and there was no way he could have anticipated how amazing that was going to be. Blaine tasted great, and he had soft, full lips. "We can figure that out together," he told Blaine and brushed his hand up Blaine's arm. "But what about your dad, Blaine? Are you sure you're okay with this? I... guess I would be okay with keeping it a secret if it made things easier for you. I mean, if you don't want to tell him. I really don't think I'm his favourite person the world and there is that added complication that I, well, have a penis."
"Yeah, I can feel that..." Blaine threw back with a michievous smile. The way he was lying pressed up against Kurt, it was a little hard to hide anything between them. They were both teenage boys, and their bodies had reacted exactly how teenage boy's bodies would in this situation. They both had erections, and for the first time, Blaine wasn't embarrassed about that. He was coming to the realisation now that the faceless guy he had been jerking off over in his head lately was probably actually Kurt, and he sort of wanted to laugh at his own blindness with the whole thing. He had been so damn clueless, but how had he not see it was Kurt? "I don't want to hide this. You mean the world to me and I want to date you, and I want the world to know... and the world includes my dad. I just need to find the balls to tell him without chickening out. I don't want to hurt him, Kurt. But I don't want to keep living a lie and pretending I'm something I'm not anymore. Not now."
"Courage..." Kurt murmured with a teasing smile. His first reaction had been to blush at a little when Blaine acknowledged the fact they were both hard, but it was impossible to actually be embarrassed. More just bashful that all this was so new, and that Blaine was the reason Kurt was reacting like that. Neither were anywhere near ready for sex, and Kurt knew that with how morified he had been when his dad gave him The Talk, but he had read the pamphlets closely and he knew that the whole time he was reading them, he was picturing everything in the with Blaine somewhere in the future. That was a huge thing. Now it wasn't just fantasy. It was really happening. Blaine liked him back, he wanted to date him and his belly was doing little flip-flops of excitement. "Oh my god, I can't believe I have a boyfriend!" he squealed, giving a little wiggle under Blaine as he grabbed his face and pulled him back in for another kiss.
Blaine kissed him back, but then had to laugh and it yet again broke the kiss. "Oh my god, so do I!" he joked back and then wrapped Kurt up in a cuddle, settling down beside him. They were lying facing each other, arms hugged around each other and their noses just a few inches apart. "I've never snuggled with anyone before. You're warm and cosy, and you smell amazing. I'm going to get used to this very, very fast. I've got a doctor's appointment this evening and then dinner with dad. He wants us to talk. I'm going to try and tell him then. Hopefully I don't chicken out. I don't want to hide this. I want to be like any normal person with a boyfriend, and show you off to the whole world. I'm just... nervous I'm going to screw everything up. I seem to screw everything up lately."
Kurt shuffled a little closer and started to rub little circles to Blaine's back. "Don't overthink it all, okay? Just let it be and let it play out its natural progression. If you can't tell your dad tonight, you can try again soon. There's no pressure. I'm here and I'll help you any way I can. I know what a huge thing it is going to be for you. I'd offer to come and support you, but I know it's something you need to do on your own. There is one thing I needed to say, though. I wanted to apologise to you for kicking you out that day you tried to talk to me about sex. I wasn't ready for it at that point, and I don't know when I will be ready, but it was more the fact I was embarrassed to talk to you about it because I did have feelings for you. I just didn't mean to get all embarrassed and get my knickers in a twist with you. None of that stuff comes naturally to me, so you're just going to have to bear with me through all of this. I'm totally clueless too. But I think we can try and figure it out together, yeah? Much more of this practicing thing? But until we're both ready, maybe just a, um... no hands below the waist policy? Is that okay?"
Blaine nodded in complete agreement. "I'm more than okay with plenty more practicing," he promised, rubbing his nose gently against Kurt's and seeking out his lips again. They began to kiss softly and slowly this time, the frantic and hungry nature of their initial hook up gone for the moment. Wow, this was really nice. In fact, it was way, way more nice than he imagined it watching it on TV or in movies. Feeling Kurt this close to him, knowing that in these last few minutes, Kurt just agreed to b his boyfriend, and that it was a whole new start for them, for the first time in a very long time, Blaine was feeling content and settled. It felt right, and all he needed now was to get over the hurdle of talking to his dad about this and hope he didn't come away from it all more miserable than when he started. If his dad tried to stop him seeing Kurt, it could be the start of a huge mess because Blaine wouldn't stop seeing Kurt for anyone... not even his dad.
RP LOG, SCENE COMPLETE